why ruin lives?

Went to a party Mom...

I went to a party,
And remembered what you said.
You told me
not to drink, Mom,
so I had a sprite instead.

I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
that I didn't drink and drive,
though some friends said I should.

I made a healthy choice,
And your advice to me was right.
The party finally ended,
and the kids drove out of sight.

I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece.
I never knew what was coming, Mom,
something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
the kid that caused this wreck was drunk,
Mom, his voice seems far away.

My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
this girl is going to die.

I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high.
Because he chose to drink and drive,
now I would have to die.

So why do people e do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
like a hundred stabbing
knives.

Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom
Tell daddy to be brave.
nd when I go to heaven,
put ' Mommy's Girl' on my grave.

Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive

My breath is getting shorter,
Mom I'm getting really scared
These are my final moments,
and I'm so unprepared.

I wish that you could hold me Mom,
As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say, 'I love you, Mom!'
So I love you and good-bye.

my shark attack!

while we where at California at the beach last year, there was me, my sis kensley, and my dad went body surfing in the waves.

i was having a pretty good time (except for all that salt in my eye's and mouth.)

I got some pretty good waves. my mom, Ej (my bro,) tage (my other bro), and my sis Tatum where on shore playing in the sand (tatum had a good time eating it as well as playing in it.)

all of the sudden mom started yelling to my dad. we couldn't quite make out what she was saying, but she was panicking. "what's mom saying?" i thought as i turned to dad, but when i turned to look at him i saw something that shocked me so much i didn't believe it was really happening.

about 8 feet away i noticed a light blue-ish/gray dorsal fin pop out of the water. i coulnd't believe my eye's! but sure enough as the wave swelled i saw the huge body in the wave! i was not mistaken.

i thought that i always wanted to be attacked by a shark just to say that i had been (it sounded kind of cool), but now that i was so close from that experience, i decided i didn't want that 8 foot long experience any more. but it was to late! i had no choice now.

i statred swimming as fast as i could but before i could, dad turned around and said "look!" but his tone wasn't as scared as you would have thought! "look, dolphin's! five of them!" he finished.

so that scary experience turned out to be a cool dolphin experience. it was so cool to watch all of them riding the waves.

my ... odd dream

this is my dream... really bizarre....so i am sharing it? uh yeah...

I apparently was a government agent in the first half of my dream. I swear to you I make none of this up. Totally trippy. Ok so I was in this building and I knew (as you usually do in dreams) that the pizza factory across the street was going to blow up. Bomb or something. Apparently when pizza gets superheated it gives off pizza-acid. But pizza-acid is poisonous and burns you to the bone if it touches you. And since the pizza factory was going to blow up, the pizza was going to get superheated in the fire, fly into the air, and rain on the city causing mass destruction and death.
I knew i could save this one group of 10 or so people in the office building where I was. I told them the situation, said not to panic, and bid everyone watch out the window to see when the building explodes. Sure enough, the building exploded and it began to rain pizza acid on the streets. The sky darkened and all I could hear were sirens and screams. The pizza acid was boring into the building we were in and the other people were in a frenzy trying to get out of the building. (Bad idea, obviously.) I took my 10 or so people and shoved them down the laundry chute. We'd be safe there. surely.
When we all get down the laundry chute we're suddenly in a giant warehouse. The situation reminded me of the Antiques Roadshow, but it was a pet-matching service. Experts matched you, based on your personal qualities, to your ideal pet and sent you on your merry way. I saw a guy go out with an iguana and a woman go out with a horse before I moved on and walked out the back door, feeling my job was done.
I was suddenly in a deep, dark, close and very scary forest. Every time I took a step it got darker and denser. I quickly encountered the hooka-smoking caterpillar from Alice in Wonderland sitting on his mushroom next to a rock. He told me to follow the White Rabbit. So I did. I went down the rabbit hole at the base of the rock. I just kept falling and falling and passing weird things on my way down. I woke up to my alarm before I could reach the bottom. Pity.

Love never dies

Love never dies

she lay's there on the grass,

the song he wrote in her hands,

with all the little hearts drawn with little crayons.

as she looks up a tear fills her eye,

as she looks up into the october sky.

she wonders even though he did,

does love ever die?

she thinks of the way he looked in her eye's

she thinks of him, and she starts to cry

she thinks of the day

fate took him away

she prays "dear God tell him I miss him,

and please dear God I hope you will listen

it's him she still loves,

and he rests above.

she hopes he look down

as she lays on the ground.

she stays there through the night

watching the stars shine through the tree's

thinking back on all the memories.

she looks up through the deep blue skies

she imagines she looking in those blue eye's.

she whispers to herself the song he sang

she remembers his vioce and the way it rang.

but then a vioce as quiet as a whisper

comes to her and she knows he's with her.

she looks up into heavens windows,

his comforting vioce and then she knows.

she lay's there on the grass,

the song he wrote in her hands

with all tha little hearts drwn in crayons.

as she looks up hertears start to dry

as she looks into the October sky

now she knows even though he did,

Love never dies.

a gold star mothers day

This is an experience I had, and I thought I should share it.

This past week I came upon a song. When I heard it for the first time I decided to learn it, then sing it to my family sometime.
Finally on Sunday night, at my grandma’s house I asked if I could sing them a song. Now usually I will sing musicals, with my siblings, or by myself, just for fun, But tonight I was going to surprise them. I starting singing:

“it usually sits on the desk by the vase, but she holds it close to her chest.
Memories taking her back to a place where her little boy grew up to fast.
Pushing his race car right down the hall,
Dressed in his uniform playing baseball,
Holding and kissing him after a fall
Where has her little boy gone?

She’s so proud of her son, Such a good little boy.
How he loved his mom and filled her heart with joy.
Courageous and kind and so brave and so true.
Never embarrassed to say ‘I love you.’
So proud of her son, and his love that he gave,
So proud on mothers day.”

strangely, I could feel my voice start to shake. I realized what was starting to happen. But I controlled my voice as I continued;

“it usually sits on the desk by the vase, but she holds it close as she dreams.
Memories taking her back to a place where her little boy turned seventeen.
Telling them jokes, and they laughed every time.
Fixing up cars and making them shin.
A handsome young man with a smile so divine.
Where has her little boy gone?

she’s so proud of her son, Such a fine young man.
How he loved his mom, her number one fan.
Courageous and kind and so brave and so true.
Never embarrassed to say ‘I love you.’
So proud of her son, and his love that he gave,
So proud on mothers day.”

By the time I passed the bridge, and was starting into the third verse, I couldn’t hold it in any more. Never had those words that I was about to say, ever struck me so hard.
I felt the tears start to roll down my checks. I couldn’t continue. I took a pause. I know this surprised my parents. They hardly ever see me cry. I hardly ever do cry. I noticed my grandma’s tears also running down her face as well. When I finally took a breath, I continued on threw the tears that where still rolling down my face;

“ she’s so proud of her song, the brave strong Marine
A hero who laid down his life just for me.
Courageous and kind, and so brave, and so true,
Never embarrassed to say ‘I love you’
So proud of her son,
And his life that he gave
On a gold star mother’s day.

It usually sits on the desk by the vase, a mothers day gift in a frame.
A picture of him with a smudge on his face,
as she quietly whispers his name.”

This song has really taught me how much I have to be grateful for. That every day we have soldiers that defend our country, our liberty, and our life’s.. now I know that I have a deeper understanding and thanks for them. Tonight when I pray to my heavenly father, I will be sure to say

“Please bless our soldiers.”

HSM3

k, so this last wednesday, i was an extra in HSM 3 A.K.A. high school musical!
yay, right? so all i did from 11:00 till 4:45 was sit... and sit, and sit! boring!

any way. so latter that night (@ about 9:00) i got to go watch them film lucas grabeel (the love of my life.) so yeah i watched him for about 4 hours. it was amazing! then at about 12:00 i was sitting in my seat. i took a fast look behind me. and there was this pretty cute guy. i thought "he's kinda cute," then it dawned on me. "THATS ZAC EFRON!" i swooshed my head back to look at him while he was drinking a water bottle. and i guess he thought that was pretty funny cause his water almost went through his nose. then he came and walked up to me, laughing, and sat next to me. i was like "uh..." so he asked me my name, and asked if i was an extra, and all that jazz. he seemed pretty friendly. then some called his name, and he said "well i'll catch ya latter" and gave me a high five, then walked away. then about ten minutes latter i was walking out the door cause my mom was almost there. he was by the door talking to some people, i was about to walk past him, when he said "hey you!" so i walked up to him. "you made me laugh. that made my day... or night. are you leaving?" i said yeah and he said "do i get a hug?" i was like "uh yeah!" then he said bye, and i waljed out the door and was like "I JUST HUGGED ZAC EFRON!!" any way thats my story.